Saturday, May 7, 2011

It's Not So Much a "Block" as a "Black Hole"

I've always valued this blog as a place where I can write through and about my life. I never wanted it to be the sort of blog that simply recounted my daily life, but rather a place where I could be somewhat thoughtful - if not always serious - about my feelings and ideas and experiences. My blogging has been one of my ways of working through my emotional life - figuring out how I feel about something, or how I'm going to proceed with it.

Lately I've noticed that I haven't felt the need to write here quite as much. It could be a symptom of my life being significantly more settled than it was a year ago, but whatever it is, I just don't feel like I have much to write these days. It's not writer's block, which implies that there's something in there that could come out. It's more a lack of anything to say.

I'm conflicted and a little sad over this. I don't want to let this blog wither with only sporadic posts. I love the community of people who have grown up around it. They've been wonderfully supportive of me in times when my more traditional support system has not. But on the other hand, I don't want to write just because I feel like I need to post something regularly. I value the honesty and authenticity I've been able to maintain here, and I think routine posts about mostly nothing would undermine that. It's a bit of a conundrum, really. 

But rather than simply give up, I'm going to try taking a new direction or two. Please bear with me. I'm certain there will be a few posts that will be miserable failures, but maybe there will be a few that work as well. My hope is that, just as I'm slowly finding a new path forward in my life, I'll be able to do the same thing here.


Amy in Austin said...

I'm looking forward to reading whatever you have to say. I miss your posts.

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