Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Not Letting the (Lack of) Bastards Get Me Down

I really don't want this to turn into a dating blog. There are a lot of good ones out there already (including my friend Single Blonde's), and that's not *all* I have going on in my life to write about. But right now it does seem to be the predominant theme...

After last week's minor meltdown I decided that instead of moping at home alone, I should stack my calendar full of fun activities with people I enjoy. So I made happy hour plans with one friend, and contacted another to see if she wanted to catch up (since she had the nerve to go on a cross-country road trip for two weeks without me - hmph), and then this crazy thing happened - all of the sudden I had four guys with real potential messaging me on OkCupid. I didn't change anything on my profile, I didn't change my photos, nothing. Just out of the blue. And then, just as suddenly, I had dates on the books with three of them. It's to the point where I can't even really keep them all straight in my head (especially since two of them have the same name, with the same spelling, which is really going to throw a wrench into things when one of them calls). I had my first date with one of them on Monday. He seems like a pretty cool guy, and I'd definitely go out with him again if he calls. The next dates are this Saturday and next Monday. The other one, well, he may never happen because he turns out to have some... issues.

The details on the guys and the dates aren't nearly as important as what I noticed about myself. Namely, that the moment I had some interest from these guys and some dates in the works, my mood completely shifted from down and out to happy and giggly. And while a good mood is, well, good, I shouldn't let it be so heavily determined by an external factor that's so out of my control. I'm just not sure how best to do that. It's really difficult for me to talk myself out of those places, because everywhere I look I see evidence to support my feelings. Maybe the best lesson I can take away from this is just to be more self-aware about how I'm feeling, and how quickly it can change.

On a completely unrelated note, I was totally excited yesterday when I read The Ruckus and learned that one of my current favorite artists, Laura Marling, has a new album coming out in September. Here's the preview. I heart her.

And yes, I just used a noun as a verb. Sue me.


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